This pregnancy has been way different than the first one. The first time around I never forgot I was pregnant. It was such a big deal in my mind (I know this baby is too but you know what I mean) that I couldn't possibly forget but this time I find myself going all day without remembering that I have a wee babe inside of my belly. I'm sure as my belly grows it will be hard for me to forget but for now I'm so busy with Farrah that baby dos seems to slip my mind. Usually when I remember is early afternoon when I'm so tired I can't keep my eyes open. It's really not fair that preggos who are tired aren't supposed to have caffeine. This is when I need it most.
I'm hoping that this pregnancy will go by much faster because it's not on my mind as much. So far it has. It seemed like forever to find out the sex of the baby last time and it really hasn't been that bad waiting this time. In a little over a month we'll know if we're having another sweet girl or handsome little man. So far most votes seem to be for team blue. We shall see. Farrah is girl enough for me and if I never have another girl again I know I got one of the girliest girls out there so I'm good.
I used to watch the show Baby Story on TLC and whenever I would see moms of one child getting ready to have another child they would always get very emotional going to the hospital. They would be worried about their first baby and how they were going to possibly handle a second baby without their first feeling left out. I would watch with a little bit of judgement about their reactions... how silly is that? And yet, here I am, facing the same situation and I have the same worries. If it weren't for finances, I think we would have tried for another baby much sooner, and now I am so glad with the way things worked out. I've been able to enjoy my time with Farrah so much. I know many people have babies back to back and are happy with that, and I believe if that's what we had done I would have been too, but now when I look at Farrah and the fun we have together, I think about having another baby competing for my attention and I get nervous. Mommy problems.
I wonder what the baby will be like, how he or she will change the dynamics of our family, and how Farrah will deal with the change. I guess I won't know until the time comes. For now I'll continue to enjoy my time with Farrah. 6 months to go until this house gets turned upside down again.
Friday, June 1, 2012
Sunday, May 27, 2012
This parenting thing
These past couple weeks have been interesting to say the least. I think God was trying to knock me down a peg or two because I was talking to my husband about how I finally felt like I had started to get the hang of this parenting thing. I was in a good place. My normally easily stressed out self seemed to have calmed down quite a bit. I didn't get worked up with the small stuff. We had a good routine going. All that good stuff. And with that came 2 weeks of the exact opposite. I'm going to blame it on the pregnancy hormones.... that and my proclaiming I'm an awesome parent.... God had to make sure I knew who was really in control. I don't know why it happened. I can't even really put my finger on it. Farrah has stopped napping again so I know that has a lot to do with it. That 1 1/2 hours a day that I can work, clean, or just plain veg on the couch is my sanity and allows me to gear up for the rest of the day so when I don't get that time mama gets a bit cranky.
My best friend was over the other night and we were watching the Bachelorette... side note, am I the only one that thinks this season is rather boring? Anyways, she was over and I was telling her about the craziness that was my day and my complete impatience for my poor toddler that was doing nothing other than being a toddler and because of my exhaustion I couldn't deal. She was laughing as I was telling her my story and then I started laughing when I realized the sheer ridiculousness of it all. My mental state became even more apparent while she was there and my pets were driving me crazy. My dog wouldn't stop licking the couch, even as I'm pulling him off the couch he's still licking it. My cats won't go in the garage which is where they get locked up at night so they don't wake us and the baby as they chase each other around all night. And in the midst of this craziness I look over to see my friend just cracking up. It was then I realized.... why wouldn't I be a little crazy... my life is crazy!
I know with 2 instead of 1, it's only going to get more crazy, but my hope is that my patience will grow. My parenting failures of the past 2 weeks have reminded me that I will never really have this parenting thing down. At the end of the day, I'm not perfect, my beautiful child is not perfect, my life is definitely not perfect. Sometimes I consider it a win that everyone survived the day. And while it's my goal to make memories with Farrah that she will always remember of a great childhood with a mom who was always on top of her game, I have to be ok with those days when we just survive. In the end I love her more than anything, I love my husband more today than when I married him, we're all safe, healthy and we are all happy.
My best friend was over the other night and we were watching the Bachelorette... side note, am I the only one that thinks this season is rather boring? Anyways, she was over and I was telling her about the craziness that was my day and my complete impatience for my poor toddler that was doing nothing other than being a toddler and because of my exhaustion I couldn't deal. She was laughing as I was telling her my story and then I started laughing when I realized the sheer ridiculousness of it all. My mental state became even more apparent while she was there and my pets were driving me crazy. My dog wouldn't stop licking the couch, even as I'm pulling him off the couch he's still licking it. My cats won't go in the garage which is where they get locked up at night so they don't wake us and the baby as they chase each other around all night. And in the midst of this craziness I look over to see my friend just cracking up. It was then I realized.... why wouldn't I be a little crazy... my life is crazy!
Friday, May 18, 2012
Well hello there!
I think that may have been my longest hiatus from blogging since I started this blog back in 09. It's kind of a long story but for those of you that don't know me very well, in some ways I can be a bit of a perfectionist. I got it in my head that I wanted to revamp the design of my blog but I didn't want to pay anyone to do so, so I researched online on how to do it myself. 3 hours later I had a half done, shotty blog design that I really didn't like and so I didn't want to post anymore until I got it fixed. Well, weeks went by, and then months and I still hadn't fixed it myself nor had I bitten the bullet and paid someone to do it. We're trying to pay off debt and I don't see a blog design as a necessary expense right now. So with that being said, I just put it off until I finally got tired of looking at the stupid mess that was my blog and pseudo fixed it. It will have to do for now although I would like to have one of those fancy shmancy blogs you see with the pretty pictures and all. Someday!
In other much more important news.... um I'm pregnant! Yeah, kind of anti-climatic I know but it's been so long I feel like it's old news. I'm almost 12 weeks now and little one is looking good. Due date happens to be 1 day after Farrah's 3rd birthday. Looks like we'll be having another December baby. Here's a pic of our wee little one at a little over 9 weeks. Much more to come in following posts. And much less time in between posts next time I promise :)
Monday, March 19, 2012
About Me
Hey folks! Thanks for checking out my little blog. I'm Krista! Wife to the amazing Abraham, and mommy to the adorable Farrah. California girl for life. Soon-to-be Pink Cadillac Sales Director with Mary Kay. I met the love of my life in college in 2005, we were married in 2008 and were blessed with the most amazing little girl Farrah in December of 2009. I am a self-proclaimed lover of trashy TV, starbucks, diet coke and Target... but who isn't right? This blog started off as a way for me to document my pregnancy and has become so much more. It's an outlet, a way to keep in touch, it's my story. Thanks for stopping in. Stay a while, won't you?
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Happier thoughts
Thanks for all of the kind words I've received from people regarding the last post. Miscarriage is never easy but I will same I'm doing fine now. Had I been much further along it would have been more difficult.
So now on to some happier thoughts. I recently got to do something I'd been wanting to do for a long time. I bought my husband a car. As you can probably tell from my posts, I kind of won the lottery when it comes to husbands and because he is so amazing and has sacrificed a lot to allow me to pursue my dreams, I wanted to be able to show him that it paid off and now he can reap the rewards too. So, while I'm notoriously horrible at keeping secrets (which is good I guess because who wants to be known as good at keeping secrets from your spouse?) I knew I had to do my best to keep my mouth shut and pull this off. I have a separate checking account that honestly doesn't get used all that often. Almost everything gets paid through our joint account but I decided to brush the dust off this account and use it as my "secret account." I started putting the profits from my sales of my Mary Kay business into this account and built it up until I had enough for a down payment. I went in to the dealership by myself ::cringe:: armed with my new found lovely internet car buying knowledge and was able to get the price down by $7000! I was doing the happy dance inside but trying to keep cool, calm and collected on the inside.
Now came time for the surprise. His old jeep that he's had since he was 16 has recently developed a tendency to die for no reason, then we tow it to a garage and they can't find anything wrong with it and it magically drives again until the next time it decides it wants to go on an extended vacation. So I got my friends in on the surprise and asked one of my best friend's who just bought her first home to ask to borrow his jeep so we can go to Lowe's to pick up some bigger things she purchased for the home. I went with her to "help." When we got there, we called him and told him his car died in the parking lot and asked him to come pick us up. I was hiding in the new car behind a tree in the parking lot and when he arrived and started the car right up he seemed confused/frustrated that we made him come over and the car was fine but before he could say anything I pulled up in the new car and got out and said "I heard you needed and new car!" To say he was surprised is an understatement. More like shocked and confused. After he came down off the initial shock, he was very excited. He gets to drive a nice new car and I get the peace of mind knowing he won't break down 2 hours from home at 3am after work.
All I have to say is I'm so glad I didn't quit my job when things were difficult and I stuck with it because now my family will get to reap the rewards for the rest of our lives. It reminds me to work from commitment and not emotion. Now that he has a new car I get to work on the next goals. Next stop... credit card debt free!
So now on to some happier thoughts. I recently got to do something I'd been wanting to do for a long time. I bought my husband a car. As you can probably tell from my posts, I kind of won the lottery when it comes to husbands and because he is so amazing and has sacrificed a lot to allow me to pursue my dreams, I wanted to be able to show him that it paid off and now he can reap the rewards too. So, while I'm notoriously horrible at keeping secrets (which is good I guess because who wants to be known as good at keeping secrets from your spouse?) I knew I had to do my best to keep my mouth shut and pull this off. I have a separate checking account that honestly doesn't get used all that often. Almost everything gets paid through our joint account but I decided to brush the dust off this account and use it as my "secret account." I started putting the profits from my sales of my Mary Kay business into this account and built it up until I had enough for a down payment. I went in to the dealership by myself ::cringe:: armed with my new found lovely internet car buying knowledge and was able to get the price down by $7000! I was doing the happy dance inside but trying to keep cool, calm and collected on the inside.
Now came time for the surprise. His old jeep that he's had since he was 16 has recently developed a tendency to die for no reason, then we tow it to a garage and they can't find anything wrong with it and it magically drives again until the next time it decides it wants to go on an extended vacation. So I got my friends in on the surprise and asked one of my best friend's who just bought her first home to ask to borrow his jeep so we can go to Lowe's to pick up some bigger things she purchased for the home. I went with her to "help." When we got there, we called him and told him his car died in the parking lot and asked him to come pick us up. I was hiding in the new car behind a tree in the parking lot and when he arrived and started the car right up he seemed confused/frustrated that we made him come over and the car was fine but before he could say anything I pulled up in the new car and got out and said "I heard you needed and new car!" To say he was surprised is an understatement. More like shocked and confused. After he came down off the initial shock, he was very excited. He gets to drive a nice new car and I get the peace of mind knowing he won't break down 2 hours from home at 3am after work.
All I have to say is I'm so glad I didn't quit my job when things were difficult and I stuck with it because now my family will get to reap the rewards for the rest of our lives. It reminds me to work from commitment and not emotion. Now that he has a new car I get to work on the next goals. Next stop... credit card debt free!
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