So much has happened that I almost don't even know where to begin. I'll be a predictable mom and start with my kids. Farrah is officially in Kindergarten. She's been in school for a few weeks now and seems to be doing well. I think she's starting to make friends and get into a groove. I held it together relatively well that first day. It's incredible how much parenting is about trusting. Trusting that you've done enough leading up until this point that they'll be able to handle themselves without you there all day. Trusting a teacher that you just met will be able to look after your child. Trusting that the parents of the other kids in her class have done a decent job themselves so that the children in her class will be a good influence. Trusting my daughter to start making some decisions on her own. There have been so many moments over the past few weeks where I have had a deeper love and appreciation for my own parents. It's not easy but we do the best we can.
Evan will be 10 months old in less than a week. I am loving this age. Other than a bad few days of teething it has been such an enjoyable time. He's crawling now so he's loving to explore and play. I could watch him forever. His expressions are priceless. It's hard to believe that in just over a month he will be 11 months. Such a bittersweet time for us. Kellen passed away on his 11 month birthday and we never got to experience a happy first birthday. The idea that Evan is almost the same age as Kellen was is a very difficult thing for me to think about for so many reasons. I'll save that for another post. As I sit here writing, staring at Evan in the baby monitor, I have more joy in my heart than I have in the past 655 days. Evan has been my angel here on earth.
Oh yes and then there's the grown ups. Abe has been busy working on a few projects. He is still the domestic engineer of the house and overall jack of all trades. He has a side business, still DJ's from time to time, helps me in the office, and tears up the basketball court a few times a week. So when people ask what he does all day.... yeah. That's on top of taking care of 2 children. He is basically my hero.
As for myself. Where to begin. My mother in law described me as someone who has an amazing ability to take on a challenge. I've never thought of it that way but I'd have to agree with her. I just finished up 2 back to back 6 week challenges at a local gym that included a strict diet and exercise plan and completed the challenges with 35 lbs lost and much stronger than I have ever been in a long time.
Let me back things up real quick. I'm someone who makes quick decisions. Call me crazy but I don't need a lot of details. I go based on my feelings. If I feel called to do something I do it. And for that season of my life, that is what I needed to do. I needed to prove to myself that I could finish something that I started and that I was stronger than I ever thought possible. So even when it was clear that I wasn't going to hit my weight loss goal in the last week, I still stuck to the plan with the work outs and my fish and asparagus diet (yes, I only ate fish and asparagus for a week.) Because what was important was that I finished. I learned so much but am ready to move on to my next challenge. This next phase is going to be one of professional growth. I have a lot of people's dreams that are tied to mine and so I'm stepping out in faith that, just like my physical challenge that I just completed, I will also be able to finish this professional challenge.
My emotions have been all over the board lately. I was trying to pin point what was causing it. I'm sure it's a combination of a lot of things (my poor husband.) But I have determined I'm not cut out for social media. I'm too passionate. And my heart breaks every time I start scrolling. So this morning I decided to implement a "No scrolling" policy on social media. If I want to see how someone's doing, I will find their profile to check it out, but I can't mindlessly scroll on facebook anymore. Other than the obvious fact that it wastes precious time, I'm finding that it leaves me emotionally drained and sad. Our country is so divided. Everyone is so busy wanting to be right that they're saying things and posting "articles" that cause more division. I'm sure I can't be the only one that feels this way. So I'm inviting you to join me for 21 days of #NoScrolling. I'm excited to see if I can feel a difference.
Life is too short to waste time. Life is too short to be worked up about something. Especially facebook.
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